Conde de Bonfim

I feel like a ghost, my
Presence is acknowledged yet
Contested. In conversation,
Words grow like mushrooms
In my mouth and I am helpless
Like a child, eyes wide in anger
Rage-biting fear.

So many words choked in my
Throat, my tongue swells, and
The explosion comes. In English.
Against the wind. Against the
Battle cry of my own beating heart
That sweats in the hot sun,
Wondering if veins are like
Portable roots. It is not culture
Shock so much as withdrawal.

Culture Shock

And in a rush a
Lifetime of loss rushes over me
Flooding my body
With the excessive echoes of ghosts
Convulsing in the sorrow of memories
That never existed
I swam here
Over saltwater oceans of tears
Nearly drowned and still
Nothing sits before me
Nothing changes on the waves
Of loneliness
In isolation we face
The emptiness of our
Deepest selves
With both wonder and cowardice